There are only a few months left of our senior year and as the days go by the anticipation for graduation grows more and more. I never thought I’d say it, but I'm kind of sad that schools almost over. After graduation, some of us will never see each other again. Will be off in college and start a new life where ever we end up. Schools has been going good to this point I’ve been good about managing my time with work, college, senior year, and preparing myself for my exit interview. Even though I’ve been good about getting my work in on time the only thing I’m really worried about is that due to that that I’m taking classes at PC I’ve mis a lot of classes at LHSwhich will count against me when they have to decide who walks in the graduation ceremony. This has lead me to make a difficult decision; choosing between graduation and my math class at PC. I made an appointment with my councilor at PC and I’m going to drop my math class because I know I wasn’t going to pass and my mom really was me to walk. I don’t see why, but she sees it as a big accomplishment. We always get in fights over this because I don’t care if I walk or not as long as I get my diploma. I still don’t know what I’m going to do after high school. I see people tweet about these big schools they got into which makes me kind of sad because I know if I would have put myself to it, I could have been a 4.0 student and be a great competitor for all those school but I didn’t. I got lazy and did the bare minimum, which I really regret now, but I guess there’s no one else there is no one else to blame but myself. I got into all four schools that I applied to but sad to say I will most likely be staying here and attending COS. This is because I never realized how expensive and difficult college was. I know if I go away to college it’ll be just to get myself in debt if I fail. This really makes my mom mad because she knows how smart I am but was she doesn’t understand is that all, if I need money I know they won’t be able to help because they won’t be able to. I could always take out a loan, but I always have this thought in the back of my head,” What if I fail.” I know I shouldn’t be thinking about the negatives but I’m just being realistic. Well I sit I’ll don’t know what I want to study anyways so I can do two years here and transfer which I hear is cheaper.
With four months left in senior year the stress hasn’t really gotten to me. Maybe it is simply because I only have two actual classes where work could be assigned outside of class and four classes total. I’m kind of glad that I only have four classes because I see people with full schedules drowning in homework. Fortunately for me, that’s not the case. I only have four essays to be done with all my classes this semester. I’m really proud of myself and my ability to stay on top of all my work. Fists semester isn’t over for another two weeks.
Next semester I will only be attending two classes here at LHS and I will be taking a math and English class at PC which I’m really looking forward to. We just got back from winter break and I have still only received one acceptance letter I don’t really mind because I really only want to go to Chico which is where I got accepted. Nothing has seemed to change much in the last couple of months except for my anxiousness towards graduation. I am so ready to leave LHS. I signed up to do my exit interview early just to get it out of the way as soon as possible and not have to worry about it later. My mom and I haven’t talked much about college because she really doesn’t want me to go. She keeps trying to convince me to do my two years here and just transfer, but she doesn’t understand how bad I want to leave. If I do leave it’s like starting a whole new life where no one knows you or anything about you. I mean who wouldn’t want a fresh start, right. It has been four months since my last journal entry and little has changed. In November I applied to four universities for civil engineering. The four schools I applied to were Fresno State, Sacramento State, San Jose State, and Chico State. From those four universities I heard back from Chico, within two days, that I had been conditionally accepted for the fall semester of 2016. This made me feel really excited because when I filled out the applications I had a fear that none of them would want me. This fear stemmed from the fact that my brother was only accepted by one of the universities that he had applied for; he was in a boatload of AP classes and always got level fours. This made me think that maybe I wasn’t fit for a university I have never had an AP class and have only received about 4 level fours throughout all of high school. The acceptance to Chico, my top pick, brought me a great deal of peace of mind.
Then a month later I received another acceptance letter this time to Fresno State. I wasn’t as excited though. I only applied to Fresno because my mom made me. She wanted me to go to school somewhere close but like every teenager I want to get as far away from home as possible. At first my mom wasn’t onboard about me going to Chico. She had her mind set on me going to Fresno or San Jose with my brother. My aunt convinced her to let me go where I wanted to. So far, senior year has been pretty stress free. My classes are all supper chill and pretty easy. I have weight training, ag, English and guitar. Next semester I shall only have English and ag because I have to drop weight training and guitar to accommodate my PC schedule. I have signed up for English and Trig in PC so I won have time for much. I passed intermediate algebra at PC which made me happy because I needed to take trig and if I didn’t pass algebra I wouldn’t be able to. Both my classes for the spring semester are freshman college level and if I pass them I might get exempt from some classes when I go in to college. I know I didn’t want my senior year to go by fast but now I want it to fly by so I can be done with high school. Sometimes I wish I could see how things will turn out for me but since I can’t I have to living day by day. We finally made it to senior year, the most anticipated year of our entire high school career. We have been in high school for three years now and finally we are on our way out.
I have many plans and goals for my senior year. I plan on taking classes at Porterville College and if I’m able to stay in top of all of my school work, try to finish senior year early. I also plan on getting all fours which should be easy given the fact I only have four classes. Since I am taking classes at PC I have received a modified schedule so I only have to attend school when I have class which means the days I don’t have class I can leave home early. That’s something I’m really looking forward to since I have never been a really big fan of school. I am not against school I just don’t like the dram and conflict that comes with the people whom attend. The last three years I have tried to stay out of the entire high school dram and limit my social interactions. Education wise my last three years have not been the best. I failed algebra 2 my sophomore year which I guess wasn’t that bad because I was one math year ahead and only failed because I didn’t finish the last measurement topic. My junior year I took government and economics and finished up algebra 2 after school. I was able to take economics and government because over the summer of sophomore year I took a U.S. History class at PC which excepted me from high school U.S. History so that too put me ahead. However, I didn’t complete first semester English until the second semester and failed Spanish speakers 2 because I was missing one measurement topic. Surprisingly and tanks to my college course my GPA has not suffered as much it hasn’t gone up much but at least it didn’t drop either. This year though, I will pick up the slack. This semester I am only taking one college class but I plan on taking two next semesters if possible English and a Science that way when I start college I will have one semester of college complete and enter as a second semester freshman. I plan on taking my SAT one more time, if possible two, and my ACT. My plans after high school are not to go to a four year right away but to a community college and transfer. I hope senior year doesn’t go by as fast as everyone says it does because after high school we have to start to live life as adult. We are making life changing decisions that will affect us the rest of our life. This is the year that will make and break most of us. I pray that this year is good stress free year even though I highly doubt it will be stress free since it is SENIOR YEAR. I never knew how hard school was until I started my junior year. I would always hear upper classman complain about the difficulty of high school but it wasn’t until this year that I realized that high school was truly hard. This year was far from what I had anticipated; it has been way more work than I’ve ever had in both my freshmen and sophomore year put together and things just seem to be getting harder.
The thing about this year is that it makes me feel like I’m going to do or be something great in life and it making me push myself to reach higher expectations and work harder. I’ve become less social this year and lost a lot of “friends” due to the fact that they were too time consuming and not as understanding that for me school is a priority and not an option. I’ve always felt that school should come first because my parents raised me in a way to believe that if I wanted to become an important person in this world I had to get a good education and that’s why I work hard in school. Through my high school career I’ve come across many people who have their life planned and know exactly what they want to do with their lives but sadly I am not one of them. The thing is, that if I say that I know what I want to do after high school then I’d be lying because at my age it difficult to answer the Golden Question: “what do you want to do for the rest of your life.” Don’t get me wrong I have some things in mind but I don’t know if that what I want to pursuit. At this moment I’m only concentrating in passing all my classes and doing well in school and if everything else falls apart along in the process so be it as long as at the end of the day my chances of going to college aren’t impacted. I have become really involved in FFA and it’s amusing because I’m an officer. I’ve grown up working in the fields so I am very fond of agriculture. My Agriculture class is one of my favorites because it teaches me so many things about agriculture I didn’t know. I really like this class because it pretty much all hands on the teacher always told us if we aren’t getting dirty we aren’t learning. Though my junior year is almost half way done I’ve had a great experience at Lindsay high school and I hope that from this point it just gets better. I have less than a year left in this school I’m going to make it an unforgettable one for myself and everyone around me. |
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February 2016
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